The healing power of letting things be .... and a goal

Greetings from the land of J9.

Well, the previous posts here on this rambling blog have been really rather, shall we say, about the interesting and undiscovered journeys of sadness and the big "D".

Well, it's been a number of weeks since writing, and I am so pleased to announce that I have not felt the lurking or overwhelming blanket of D sneak up and engulf me for probably a month! Yipppeeeee!

Maybe I am healed? I attribute this shifting of the sands to a few things.

One, was the ability fo finally let it be. To stop judging it, and also to actually embrace it and enjoy it. The more enlightened points of view on the matter really suggest it is a powerful and exciting opportunity to go within, rest and emerge all the more for the experience... with clarity and, um, un-veiling.

The unveiling for me, feels like this realisation that the fat lady is singing. I must go forward doing something I love. It is not surprising really that these two things collided, because journeying along this last few months kind of umbilically attached via the internet have been the nurturing, funny and wise words of Barbara. Reminding me that depression was about curling up and resting to heal, but at the same time, teaching what she teaches so brilliantly.... that I must do what I love to do.

I stacked that one up .. in my mind (the do what I love one) not wanting to pressure myself with anything new, just let the D run its course, yet also knowing that it marks a pivot point....

So the first was letting it be, the second more recent emergence has been the power of some exciting goals... which have really helped to rocket blast the fuels of happiness and activity up my butt....

Firstly, I have a big work deadline about to come and go (end of a looong project)... action time!

Second, I have after a few years of loose conversation about it, gathered a group of ten to lead a walk over the Overland Track in Tasmania's wilderness in late October (e-gad better get fit and make sure everyone knows what wild woollie unpredictable and unforgiving pristine stunningly spiritually life altering beautiful and un-altered terrain they will be spending six days traversing with packs).

And last and most excitingly, I am going on retreat with Barbara in the south of France, to commune with my fellow lovers of all things ... 'Scanners'. The promise of this retreat (for me anyway) is to uncover lost passions, and to create a plan to go forward and engage in them, whilst contributing those gifts that I have an obligation to share with the world!

So of course, a trip to France wouldn't be complete without a stopover in Thailand to visit Lukey on the way and a visit to my old home, London and my wondrous friend Margie.... and heck, might as well add some walking in France and Spain to get in training for the overland.....

He he he he.

The J9 travel itch is about to be scratched, and the love of writing is being explored again (thank you Barbara!) ... I have so much to thank Barbara for. I am re-ignited with those things that I love to do, and it's thanks to her cleverly 'picking me like a nose'! he he .. seeing through me and knowing very quickly what was missing in my life.

Have I told any of you lately that i love to write?!! And travel and be emotionally intense???? he he....

Did I say that I love to write already?
I love it that you read this too.

Love
Janine